I decided I should blog again. I'm at an apex in my life that I can't describe. Not in an eloquent way, at least. I am accountable, empowered with money and independence, but humbled by reputation and a constant awareness of my mortality. What do I want to do with all this power? Who is going to make me do it? And why is my own accountability not enough? Why am I so tired all the time? Why can't I ever accomplish the goals I set for myself? I am disgusted with myself and I don't know what to do about it. And it sucks that I can't blame anyone or anything else but myself. I forgot to call my friend this weekend even though I told her I would. I sort of forgot. But there were pockets in my day where I could've called her. Like, right now, I'm sure she's awake. But but BUT, I'm tired. Not tired enough to write this blog but too tired to talk to someone right now. See? There's always an excuse but never a good enough one. Anyway, I don't wa...