For How Long Will I Be Considered Young? | My 20s

I had the most peaceful weekend I've ever had in a long while. I went out on Thursday to Ladies Night at this one bar after a guyfriend asked me to go out. It was funny because I was actually considering asking a group to go but I was feeling a little tired, had just gotten back from a salsa class, and was erring on the side of just staying in. When I got the text, I felt like it had been a sign. I got ready and was ready to share an Uber with the guyfriend when he told me that he didn't want to go anymore because the girl he was interested in would be there with a guy she likes. For the purposes of this post, I will refer to the guyfriend as The Ginger. I was disappointed but I completely understood. I was actually annoyed with the girl because she seemed to be stringing him along even though she was not into him. It would be one thing if she saw The Ginger as just a good friend but from getting to know her, I realized that she simply craved male attention and liked to kee...

Now it's the end of another weekend. I've finally recovered from another hangover and I'm about to go to sleep soon to begin the first day of another week at work. I really suffered emotionally last week. All because of Teddy. There was almost no second where he was not on my mind. And as much as I don't want to believe it, I'm certain that I almost never crossed his mind this week. Like I said in my last post, the signs are all there that yet again, I am falling for a guy that does not like me like that. It made my stomach hurt all week. Everything I put in my mouth made me gassy and I thought I was giving myself an ulcer. It wasn't cute. I think part of it was that I just could not wait to see him again. I imagined how great it would be. I imagined hugging him and kissing him. I imagined some other stuff that I don't care to admit in text right now. I say these things but I was not in a good place. Finally, Friday came around and I was hoping that he...

So, in my last post, I neglected to mention that I had been recovering from a hangover after a night out for my friend's birthday. I took her birthday celebration pretty seriously as she's my closest friend in Melbourne. I bought her some gluten-free cupcakes from a real bakery and sent the invites out for the pre-game. I told her I was already planning on sleeping over. She's been going through a lot recently because she and the love-of-her-life decided they can't be together. He visited in December from Scotland and she's only now cleaning up the parts of him that still linger in her room. She told me that it would be nice to have new memories on the other side of her bed. I was happy to be that for her. I feel like I don't remember much from that night. Since the birthday girl is gluten-free, it was an all-tequila night. I've never been one to oppose tequila. It tastes so good with lime and it was slowly becoming my favorite alcohol because of my frie...

Welcome to 2020. The year of new vision and insight. It's only February and I'm not sure how I feel about this year just yet. Time is a human construct though so 2020 means nothing to the universe. The universe will give and take away whenever it feels like it. And thus, I am scared. I am so scared.  Right now, my heart is beating and I'm not sure if it's just the side effects of over-consuming tequila last night or my anxiety. Maybe it's both. But it's almost 6 PM and the only thing I've accomplished is eating and sleeping so whatever it is, I'm not doing too well.  Kobe Bryant, his daughter, and 7 others died in a terrible helicopter crash last week. I was an hour from leaving my friend's house in Conshohocken to go to the airport to get back to Florida. I was absolutely frightened. Bad things like this don't happen to people like Kobe Bryant, right? You never heard headlines about him going in and out of rehab. He wasn't associ...